thank God for mothers!
i've been carrying some burden in my mind and heart since yesterday afternoon. i lost sleep over it, and i've snapped at hubby je a couple of times yesterday for trying to "help" me figure things out. i think i don't want to figure out anything just yet. i think i want to feel the shock, and the worry, and all the unnameable emotions that go with it.
there's going to be a lot of changes in my work place starting next week. all the bosses i've had, they're all moving to different areas of IT. there's only 3 developers in my group, and one of us is going to the configuration management side. new boss, new teammates, new culture.
i'm worried because i know that other areas in our department sucks. i know i have one of the best, if not the best, boss in the company. and this change is really throwing me off. will i be allowed to work from home once a week? can i still get my 1-month vacation next year, given that there's only 2 of us now? is my new boss a by-the-book boss, or does she value work-life balance? will she filter out requests and re-arrange priorities like our boss did for us? a lot of things on my mind. i don't even know how my new boss looks like.
i wanted to get out of the office earlier, so i went out to pick up lunch somewhere. i thought of calling mama. she was already asleep, but she picked up the phone. she sounded very sleepy. the moment i talked to her, everything just flowed freely, except my tears.
i'm glad i was able to talk to her about all my worries, and i was able to ask her to pray for me, my job, and my life in general. it feels good to have her listening, even though i know 99% of the stuff i talked about is completely foreign to her. she didn't work in a company environment. she is definitely not IT. but she listened, and it made all the difference in the world.
when we hang up, i feel lighter. and i genuinely have a positive outlook on things now. i was finally able to digest what hubby je has been telling me yesterday. stay positive, leverage yourself, hope for the best.
i don't know what i'm gonna do without my mama. i turn to her for comfort, for advise, for chismis. thank God for mothers! i hope i can be the same kind of mom to my kids. =)
there's going to be a lot of changes in my work place starting next week. all the bosses i've had, they're all moving to different areas of IT. there's only 3 developers in my group, and one of us is going to the configuration management side. new boss, new teammates, new culture.
i'm worried because i know that other areas in our department sucks. i know i have one of the best, if not the best, boss in the company. and this change is really throwing me off. will i be allowed to work from home once a week? can i still get my 1-month vacation next year, given that there's only 2 of us now? is my new boss a by-the-book boss, or does she value work-life balance? will she filter out requests and re-arrange priorities like our boss did for us? a lot of things on my mind. i don't even know how my new boss looks like.
i wanted to get out of the office earlier, so i went out to pick up lunch somewhere. i thought of calling mama. she was already asleep, but she picked up the phone. she sounded very sleepy. the moment i talked to her, everything just flowed freely, except my tears.
i'm glad i was able to talk to her about all my worries, and i was able to ask her to pray for me, my job, and my life in general. it feels good to have her listening, even though i know 99% of the stuff i talked about is completely foreign to her. she didn't work in a company environment. she is definitely not IT. but she listened, and it made all the difference in the world.
when we hang up, i feel lighter. and i genuinely have a positive outlook on things now. i was finally able to digest what hubby je has been telling me yesterday. stay positive, leverage yourself, hope for the best.
i don't know what i'm gonna do without my mama. i turn to her for comfort, for advise, for chismis. thank God for mothers! i hope i can be the same kind of mom to my kids. =)
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