time for (a cool) change(?)
i'm supposed to be doing some testing for the project that i started last year. the one that got me working the weekends, late nights, even from home. but i just couldn't find the drive to do it. i have a million things going on in my mind right now, and testing is not one of them. so i decided i'll just write.
i'm starting to think more often about a career change. an industry shift. a life-changing decision, if you will. i'm starting to wonder if i really should be a programmer. if i should be in IT. the more i learn about stuff, the more i'm starting to doubt if i really want to be doing this until i reach 40, 50 or even 60 years old.
but the pay is good. it's more than what i am expecting from the beginning. probably coming from a third world country made me think this way. maybe i was just waaaay underpaid in my job in Pinas, that anything above it is like bonus every paycheck. but i can't deny that it still pays better than most careers. i may still be even underpaid, but it's enough to get me and my family go through everyday expenses, with extra change to send to Pinas, and a few bucks for indulgences once in a while.
still. i can't get this idea out of my head. i think i want to become a nurse. how, i don't know. i just feel like if i will be working the weekends, if i will be out late at work, i might as well get paid for it. nurses get paid for working the weekends. for working late, for extending hours, for working the holidays. they probably have no deadlines. ok, maybe there are reports to be made, paperwork to be done. but it won't be as demanding as IT deadlines.
there's no question, i have to keep working until past 50, maybe even past 60 years old, to be able to support my own family, and my extended family in pinas. i'm 32. in 8 years, i'll be 40, and those 8 years are probably the prime time for working in IT. after that, what then? if i don't "run" with the technology, sa kangkungan ako pupulutin sa IT. there's always the option to shift from development, to project management, to business analysis, to the non-technical aspect of the IT world. and seriously, i'm resigned to that idea. i don't want to be 50 years old and still solving bugs. that's why i have to keep saving while i am still at my "prime working age".
so, what is the plan? work as a dev until 40 perhaps. then switch to non-dev position still in IT. until 45 perhaps? by 45 years old, it might be too late to start learning how to become a nurse, so what am i to do?
i must be suffering mid-life crisis, when i am looking for big changes, for some meaning, for more direction in life. since i have a wonderful family/personal life, i don't intend on changing any of that. so that leaves my career to suffer or benefit from the change that i am craving for.
*sigh* manalo na lang sana ako sa lotto, solved lahat ng ito. i mean, it will definitely answer the question of financial stability in the future. and with that comes the freedom to do what i really want. and not for money, but for the love of it.
i still have a lot to be thankful for. so much more, than other people i know. and i don't want to sound ungrateful for the blessings i have been receiving. i just wish, there's a way to pacify the passion for change for now.
i'm starting to think more often about a career change. an industry shift. a life-changing decision, if you will. i'm starting to wonder if i really should be a programmer. if i should be in IT. the more i learn about stuff, the more i'm starting to doubt if i really want to be doing this until i reach 40, 50 or even 60 years old.
but the pay is good. it's more than what i am expecting from the beginning. probably coming from a third world country made me think this way. maybe i was just waaaay underpaid in my job in Pinas, that anything above it is like bonus every paycheck. but i can't deny that it still pays better than most careers. i may still be even underpaid, but it's enough to get me and my family go through everyday expenses, with extra change to send to Pinas, and a few bucks for indulgences once in a while.
still. i can't get this idea out of my head. i think i want to become a nurse. how, i don't know. i just feel like if i will be working the weekends, if i will be out late at work, i might as well get paid for it. nurses get paid for working the weekends. for working late, for extending hours, for working the holidays. they probably have no deadlines. ok, maybe there are reports to be made, paperwork to be done. but it won't be as demanding as IT deadlines.
there's no question, i have to keep working until past 50, maybe even past 60 years old, to be able to support my own family, and my extended family in pinas. i'm 32. in 8 years, i'll be 40, and those 8 years are probably the prime time for working in IT. after that, what then? if i don't "run" with the technology, sa kangkungan ako pupulutin sa IT. there's always the option to shift from development, to project management, to business analysis, to the non-technical aspect of the IT world. and seriously, i'm resigned to that idea. i don't want to be 50 years old and still solving bugs. that's why i have to keep saving while i am still at my "prime working age".
so, what is the plan? work as a dev until 40 perhaps. then switch to non-dev position still in IT. until 45 perhaps? by 45 years old, it might be too late to start learning how to become a nurse, so what am i to do?
i must be suffering mid-life crisis, when i am looking for big changes, for some meaning, for more direction in life. since i have a wonderful family/personal life, i don't intend on changing any of that. so that leaves my career to suffer or benefit from the change that i am craving for.
*sigh* manalo na lang sana ako sa lotto, solved lahat ng ito. i mean, it will definitely answer the question of financial stability in the future. and with that comes the freedom to do what i really want. and not for money, but for the love of it.
i still have a lot to be thankful for. so much more, than other people i know. and i don't want to sound ungrateful for the blessings i have been receiving. i just wish, there's a way to pacify the passion for change for now.
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