small, serious talk

i came across an entry from suzzy's blog that talks about waiting for the "right one", in a religious point of view. while it is true that it strikes familiar chords about meeting "the one for you", it's also applicable to some other things in life. particularly these two paragraphs...

Don't be anxious. Do not worry. Don't look around and feel at the things others may have got. Yours will be different because I LOVE YOU. Don't look at things you think you want. They may not be the things I want for you. Look up straight at me because you might miss what I want to show you.

Dear one, I want you to enjoy the love that I have given you. Believe and be satisfied with me. Do not murmur that you have been waiting for so long now. You haven't. I know the perfect time to give my answers. They are never too late and will never be too soon. TRUST ME.

while i'm typing, i'm thinking about my job search. it's been almost 5 months since i last swiped a proximity card at work, and i feel like it's been a long time. i'm getting restless and impatient.

i need to learn to surrender completely. i am not in charge, His hands are at work. while i'm "idle" at home, He is not. He is preparing something for me, and i have to wait. i've done my part looking for a job, and there is no sense in pressuring myself over things i have no control. i need to be positive. i need to be content. and i need to believe that there's something out there for me. i just need to be patient, and i need to have faith.

society has a way of putting unwanted pressure unconsciously on people. if i wouldn't work on standing on solid ground, i will become a victim. and i choose not to be a victim.