lazy sunday morning

i was jolted to my senses at 9 am by pistoy's really forceful kicks to my side. i guess he's hungry. so after lying in bed for 5 minutes, coaxing my will to go back to sleep, i gave up and got up. got a bowl of cereal and sat in front of my computer to check emails, facebook, and just read random stuff.

i will definitely miss these lazy sunday mornings. but don't get me wrong. i would love to wake up to my screaming or crying or laughing or smiling little baby boy. it's just that i know it will be a while before i get sunday mornings to myself again, once pistoy is with us.

napapaisip ako. we're living such a fast paced life. sometimes, things are happening without me even realizing that i've crossed a certain threshold. i don't like that. somehow, i want to know when a defining moment is happening, and not just cruise along like in a tranced state. but not all "defining moments" are like that. it's not as dramatic.

i guess i would just hope for snippets of quiet moments to be able to see myself stepping back to have a better look at the whole picture. like right now.

maybe it's just the hormones. or the many things that are happening to me, my family, my friends, and my surroundings. it's kind of overwhelming. a lot of things to do, so very little time. and for some, even less time than is fair. it's like the list of priorities in life becomes top-heavy. at some point, i have to accept the fact that i am no superwoman, and that some things, i just have to let go. i pray for wisdom, so i can choose correctly which ones to let go.